First off I wanted to get this blog out before the 21st of this month, for one reason to signify the end. Some believe the world will end but other cultures believe it will be a rebirth and another cycle that we all will go through. I believe the second one is more true. But couldn't help posting a scary pic of the world ending!!! And no this is not the last blog either!
Any chance I can get to write about superheros I always take it. This will be no exception. Over the past few weeks I've reread all my blogs to see what I have said in the past, and knowing that i wrote those words that I was reading tells me I know deep down they are all true. Every blog I have written has led up to this one, and I didn't realize that until two or three months ago, when everything started to fall in place, and trigger the transformation of what is to become. Ralph Waldo Emerson said "The only person you're destined to be is the person you decide to be!" Well I have decided to become a completely different person and kill off a side of me that gets me nowhere. The dreamer in me is being transformed into the doer side of me, because dreams are great, but they are nothing if you don't do anything about them.
Now the superhero aspect of this. Each blog I have done so far is in a way my own team of Avenger's I have assembled to take on my own personal Loki, my negative and fearful side. Each time I posted it was accepted with love and support helping make my words stronger, and making me believe in what I was writing more and more. I'm not sure if I could add labels to my blogs according to the certain Avengers, but I know for a fact they all build on each other. Armed with the words I have written from my heart I know deep down that with the support I have now with everyone I know I too can walk up to my negative self and slam him into the ground repeatedly! Loki brags about having an army, well I have my own Hulk. My Hulk is my determination to never give up, and never stop fighting. My Loki's army is my own personal demons and fears that keep me from doing what I wanna do, well from now on I'm unleashing the Hulk on his army, and smashing it into oblivion. Fear and my demons will not hold me back anymore, what does this mean, it means I pray each night I can move on from person I am right now, and become the person I'm destined to be.
What does this all mean and what is The End I'm speaking of, it's simple I'm done talking about what I wanna do, and I'm going to do it. I already have a chapter and a half written for my book, and what I have planned for it I believe a lot of people will like it. I'm done talking about Project Awesome, because over the year it has embodied me, and swallowed me whole. I live, eat, breathe, and sleep Project Awesome and I couldn't be happier. Without it I don't know where I would be. It has helped me silence my dark self, and has brought out the best person I know who I can be. I almost didn't get to write this blog because of events that happened this weekend, but it helped me realize something in my moment of crisis. I do not want the words Chuck E Cheese manager forever immortalized next to my name, I want the words "husband, father, friend, brother, son, and writer" immortalized in my name. My whole life I've been known as the guy who works at McDonald's then became the Chuck E Cheese guy, well it's time to be known as that writer guy. My words are weapons and I'm cocked, aimed, and ready to go to battle against my own fear of not succeeding.
So to sum up everything in a nice little package this is the end of a big side of me, the side of me that is always dreaming, but never doing anything about them. This is an awakening of the man I have decided to be, and the man I am destined to become. This new year I'm making one resolution, one promise, to become the best version of myself in every aspect of my life: friendship, fatherhood, husbandhood, writer, fitness, and etc... This week starts this new promise to myself, one I know you all will help me keep. So thank you and I love you!! And last but not least, AVENGERS ASSEMBLE!!!
I promised this blog last week, and I knew what I wanted to say, but I wasn't sure how I wanted to say it. But the important thing is to get it out there, because it coincides with the big one that will be coming on Dec. 21st, about the end. No not the end of the blog, or the end of the world, but the end of completely different, and a huge promise I will be making. But enough of that, and lets get to this one.
It's no secret that next year I turn 30, and the thing that scares me is that is half way to 60! I've been looking back a lot on my past, and have come to a sad realization. When you're younger you get every little milestone applauded and praised by your family, friends, teachers, etc. We all had that paper that mom proudly displayed on the fridge and bragged to her friends about the 100 percent spelling test that her son got...and yes I can still spell paleontologist (without a spellcheck!) But was we get older we stop getting gold stars from others, and stop giving them to ourselves. The really sad part is that we rely on others to do it, and if they don't acknowledge how awesome we did we get upset at them. We have come to rely on others kudos that we forget the most important person who should be patting yourself on the back first, yourself. That may sound conceited or egotistical, but its the truth. Someone can tell you how awesome you are day in and day out, but if you at first don't believe it it does nothing. You almost feel like they are mocking you, and you actually suck. So in a nutshell before you get pissed off at the world for not giving you a gold star, first give yourself the first gold star, and the ones who matter most in your life will also send gold stars your way. You might be asking yourself; " Hey Dane, what are some gold star worthy things?" The answer is simple the mini victories you accomplish on your way to your bigger goal. because if you don't celebrate the little victories, how are you gonna prepare for the big ones.
Also looking back at my life I truly understand my life is the result of the actions I take, and the ones I don't take, and also each year of my life has had an ongoing theme. For instance my freshmen year could be defined as the "Worst luck with girls year!" It all started that summer when the girl I liked dated all my friends, but me. My first trip to the friend zone. Then fast forward to Homecoming where I'm nominated to become Homecoming Prince (as a joke mind you), and make it all the way to the finals, but without a date. And the girl I end up asking who was the girl I first ever had a crush on basically strung me along by saying maybe she'll go, and finally telling me she had a boyfriend all along. I still remember the pain I felt that night not only from my heart being stepped on, but also from the dishwasher, because I decided to put dishes away immediately after they were washed and halfway through the drying cycle, when they air is near boiling. My hands were as red as my eyes from crying so much that night. My Sophomore year can be summed up as the year I found the video camera and began my love for being behind the camera and writing again. My Junior year could be summed up with one word, "McDonald's", because that was my first job and I spent a lot of time working. And my Senior year I'll just call my "Stupid Boy" year, because I always dated or tried to date girls who my friends hated, and didn't realize my friends weren't blinded by stupidity like I was, and saw the truth before I ever could.
After high school was the year of "love and truth", because I started dating my future wife, and the following year would be the "wedding" which we spent almost all of our free time planning our wedding. After that came the "betrayed by the clown" year when I was moved to a smaller store to learn more and move up in less than a year, but instead they just kept me there and didn't teach me jack and I got angry and left, and went to the Cheese! I could go year by year, but I just wanted to show you a pattern, and I bet if you analyzed your life right now, you would see a common theme in each year of your life. I'm going to skip a few years though, and get to the last four years, and to the start of who I am today. It is true when they say you have to hit rock bottom to truly appreciate the top, and I was in a dark hole a few years back, and I am not telling you why, let's just say every aspect of life was turned upside down, and it took a lot of reading and self finding to build the ladder I used to get out. But by going though that dark time I use that to help others through there's so my pain was not in vain. The year after that I shall call the diet year because I lost 15-20 lbs on the Flat Belly Diet, and have kept most of it off still. I am super proud of the willpower I had that year.
From those two years came the workout year, and the start of Project Awesome which I know some of you have embraced and integrated into your life. I had no idea that Project Awesome would change my life so much, and how I look at my life and others. It makes me truly appreciate the now, and plan for the future. Which brings us to this year which I have dubbed the "life coach" year, because I have done a lot of that this year, and I love every minute of it. It doesn't matter if I'm writing this blog, helping a friend get over an ex, help people realize how beautiful they truly are, help best friends get back together, and a plethora of other things. I look back at this last year and realize a lot has gone down between people I love and care deeply for, but also myself. One of my friends called me an "inspiration for men to become", and the impact of that comment has resonated with me since. It is what drives me each day to begin each day with the thought that this day is the start of something amazing, but it's up to you to make it happen. I've always been a dreamer, but my biggest fear is that I'm to busy dreaming and I'll miss that moment where it's time to start doing and stop dreaming. The biggest difference between you and the person who has your dream job, is very simple, the person who has your job did more than just dream.
Which brings me to 2013! Next year I'm going to busy with doing what I do, but adding another title to long resume. Writer! I want to look back at the year 2013 when I'm 60 and say that is the year my writing career began, and it is my goal to make that happen, I will still blog, but I'll dedicate most of my writing time to my novel. If you want a little taste here ya go: What happens when a man turns 30, gains super powers, finds out his birth parents are the worlds greatest superhero and super-villian, and that super hero's are real? I don't know but I can't wait to write it, look for Super Mid Life Crisis coming soon!!! And if there is enough outcry I will post excerpts from it on my blog if enough people want me to. But that's not all!!! When I was younger I used to write poetry all the time, and my goal is to get back into doing it. Some I will post on FB, and others I will post here exclusively! They will be from the heart and I hope that they impact you when you read them.
So in short, remember to award all your victories not just the big ones, and look out for a lot of writing in the coming year by your's truly!!!
First of all I have written and rewritten this blog a thousand times in my head. The pieces started coming together over the last month, but no matter when I sat down to type it, the words never came out. It could be because I was afraid of the consequences. You might be thinking this only a blog and the words from a man's mind, but to me it's a lot more. This is my globally published pep talk I give myself, other's have told me it helps them, but in all honesty those words I type are straight from my heart and barely filtered by my brain. They are about as raw and real you will see me communicate...for now. I have made promises to myself in this blog, and most I have kept, some I have forgotten, and some I re read to remind myself I thought that once, so why the hell have I stopped thinking it. But here goes the blog I have been penning my whole life without realizing it......
I fear many things in my life, and one of them is clowns. I get a lot of crap for fearing such happy things, but who else is always smiling in all his pictures, the devil, and so do clowns, coincidence I think not. But I didn't struggle writing a whole blog on my fear of clowns, instead it's on my second and third biggest fears: never becoming the man I was born to be, and fear of failure. I believe every person on this planet was born and put here with a plan, and to further prove it there are people who excel in life, and those who crash and burn, and those two groups of people have fascinated me all my life. Just think for a second of a famous person, doesn't matter why they are famous, just think about them. Got them in your mind, good, news flash they started out just like you and me. They figured out what God intended them to do, and did it, well! Athlete, inventor, scientist, politician, actor, writer...it doesn't matter!!!! Those are all gifts we have been given, and some choose to embrace these gifts, while others just dream of doing it. I have been called a dreamer many times in my life, and truth be told I have started to hate that word being associated with me. Dreamer's don't do anything, they sit and dream about what they could be, and never actually do it. I'm currently living some of the dream I have dreamt for a life years ago. I am married to a beautiful wife who is my rock and my love. am a father to three wonderful (well not always) children, and I help others which is something I have always done since I can remember and I love doing. But no where in my dream it told me to settle on doing something where I wasn't challenged.
The world needs dreamers to think up great ideas, but without the doers of the world those ideas just remain ideas and never come into fruition. I want my name to be synonymous with the word "doer" as it is with the word "dreamer" as of right now. To the people who know me know two things, I love a challenge and I will always help you if you need it. But the thing is I love challenging other people and helping others with advice, but I rarely, damn near never follow my own advice, or challenge myself. I sit and play it safe, but I have come to realize that people who play it safe, don't succeed in anything. People fail all the time, and it's the ones who get back up, dust themselves off, and learn from their mistakes are the ones who live life! Not the ones who wait for a store to be built, and just wait in the shadows until your handed the keys to what you settled for. I'm so sick of being that guy, and it angers me that my own fear of failure has made me that guy. The fear of failure is my own inner kryptonite and it cripples me into fear of not doing anything, because I might fail. We all hate to fail and feel like that our best wasn't good enough, but I think the most worst feeling is the feeling of doing nothing. For example, one of the hardest things a person has to do is tell the person who they like that they love them. As soon as those words are said the bombshell has been dropped, and no matter what tv and movies tell us, those words do change lives, and there's no taking them back. If I was afraid to tell my wife those words over 10 years ago, I wouldn't be writing this right now. But I am a better man for taking a risk and getting over that fear.
Now comes the heavy part I made a promise to myself that whatever I write in this blog will be promise the whole world can see me making. So here goes a very important promise that I will have all of you read this help me fulfill. I know for a fact that God didn't create me to have me settle on being a manager, because I know deep down I'm intended for more than that. How do I know this because writing has always been a part of my life, even when I strayed far from it it's the one thing that has always come back to my life. As well as helping people, giving out advice, and being the ears when people want to unload. So I promise to myself to get over my fear of failure and to stop making excuses, and write! I also promise to never stop mentoring and or helping others. One of my closest friends told me that my niceness is the strangest thing about me, and I asked her why do you say that? She told me its because you do so much for others and don't ask for anything in return, and she asked me why. The truth is I don't know, I just do. I've tried being mean and I just can't do it. So long story short ballsy moves used to not be my forte, but I'm making them my endgame now. I promise I will write more and mentor and help others more, why because I believe those are the gifts God has given me to become the man who I was destined to be, and to stop being a dreamer, and start being a doer!
I've been told my "Equality" post was one of my best, and I think I know why. It's because I didn't pull any punches and I wrote from my heart and with emotion. So I thought I would try it again to see if I get the same results. As of right now I'm a blender full of emotions, and I thought I would attempt to channel all of them to write about inner demons and fear, and the role they play in my life, and possibly yours. In short I'm writing from the heart from here on out. So without a further ado, I give you inner demons and fear!
I've been told in the past they would love to spend a day with my brain, but I think it would drive others mad, hell it damn near drives me insane. We all have our inner demons and mine stay in my brain, and are extremely loud certain days, and then there are days where it seems they are exocrcised forever. Inner demons are different for every person, for me they are the little voice in the back of my head that continually tells me I'm going to fail, you can't lift that, you'll never amount to anything, etc. Inside my mind there is a constant never ending battle of good vs evil, and the days where I'm down is the days where evil wins. The voices take over and just don't shut up. They keep telling me I'm not good enough, you have to college degrees and your a manager at the Cheese, you'll never lose that weight you wanna lose, and it's on repeat for a whole day, and sometimes more. No matter how many times I bury a hole, take my demons and throw the down to the abyss, and throw away any nearby ladders, they always find a way to crawl back to the surface. The trick is you can't ignore them, because it takes energy to remember to ignore something, which in turn always makes it on your mind. If everyday I went around telling myself I am good enough to counteract the demons and to make them shut up, they have already won, because they have instilled doubt into me already, and that's all they need to do to stay around.
The trick about inner demons is to acknowledge them, because they aren't going anywhere and move on. This will enrage them because they know that you know they exist, but you're not doing a damn thing about them. Lately my inner demons have been very loud lately, because they are trying to sabotage me, and some days they succeed. But more days they don't do jack, because all I do is wave to them and give them the finger. They tell me I'm not good enough, but then I just think to myself about my friends and family and how many people love me, and I know the demons are full of it. They try telling me I'm failing at my career working at the Cheese, but then I say in a little over a year I'll hopefully be running my own store, and they tuck their tails and hide. Then the weight demon pokes his head up, a demon I've fought all my life ever since I learned the meaning of Husky pants the hard way, and wearing a sticker to school. The weight demons are the most hurtful, because they have taken on voices I have known in the past, of people I know and once called my friends telling me I was fat, and asking me where my top was when we went swimming. The most powerful inner demon is the one you can relate to actual people, but that's also it's downfall. I've accomplished a lot health wise in the last three years, and I am proud of my body, sure I don't have a rippling six pack, or giant biceps, but I like what I have done. Every time the weight demon starts to speak up, I walk up to a mirror, and roll up my sleeves, and that shuts him up real quick.
Like I said everyone's inner demons are different, and how we deal with them is entirely different. Some ignore them completely, some let them guide their life and blame what they do on them, some move towards other means to drown them out, and some just give in to them and let it ruin their life. My inner demons drive me to be a better person, and that pisses them off. I know everything they tell me on a daily basis are lies, and it eats them alive that I know that. Every time they tell me something to bring me down, I use it as fuel to accomplish what they tell me I can't. Which is a 100 times better than an exorcism.
First of all I wanted to give you a little preview of what's to come over the next few months and why, as well as try something new this time around by giving you a little soundtrack to listen to while reading. Every blog I have written has had music playing in my head or in the background, and it just reinforces my writing I think. So in this blog your about to read you'll be taking a deep look into how I view myself, but more importantly how others see me, which is drastically different then the way I see myself, until now. :) So thank you all to who contributed. I am going to take all your answers and put them on a paper in my wallet for whenever I feel like I'm not doing a thing is this world I can tell myself bullshit and look at who I am to others. Next blog coming is about inner demons and fear because I'm trying to keep with the Halloween theme. And yes there will be a mention of clowns, and probably more than once. Then the Halloween week there will be a short blog explaining Operation Thank You which I hope everyone partakes in, because it will open your eyes. I'm going to try to throw a blog in about friends, because I know a lot of people don't realize the power of having friends, and how lonely it is without them. And then I'll close out the year with a December 21st end of the world blog, but not in the way you think. But let's get to this one shall we.....
If you want to get into my mindset press play and please continue reading :)
Every morning I wake up and go the mirror and ask the man standing there staring back at me one question, who am I? Some mornings I have an answer, but more times he just stares back with no answer to give. The simple answers are a man, father, husband, and a manager, but being who I am I'm always wanting more. But with it being 6 o clock in the morning my brain just settles on the four answers and goes on with its day. Through out the day my mind just nags me and nags me asking me continually why I settle for those four easy answers, and I don't have a reason so I'm constantly at battle inside my own head. Yelling at myself internally why I keep settling for mediocrity, when I should strive for awesomeness! So I started telling myself I am awesome on a daily basis, because everyone in the world can tell you how great you are, but if YOU don't believe it yourself there's no way for you to believe its true. It doesn't stop there though, I then got the idea to ask others how they see me, and to say it was eye opening would be an understatement.
I got a lot of answers that involved my management at the Cheese, which I expected due to the fact that's where most of my friends come from! I was called the Cheese on the Pizza, CEC counselor, most understanding manager, and etc... The reason why I'm the kind of manager I am is because of one reason I promised myself to never forget what it's like to be a crew member. Without people to run anything you have nothing! You can have all the people in the world lined up, but if you don't have people there to help them, then you're beyond screwed. So I promised myself never to forget that we are all on the same team in the long run, and everyone who is there is there to support each other. I knew I was a good manager, but had no idea how good I was till others pointed it out. That is a very humbling experience. I can honestly tell you if I went back to the future to tell myself that you're going to work at the Cheese and love it I would of laughed at my future self. But being there has made me a better person, friend, manager, and a man, due to one fact, all the wonderful people I have met through there! So thank you from the bottom of my heart!
The two days that changed my life the most so far are the days my children were born, and if you're a parent you will completely agree. Soon as the first one came out and I looked down at Jaiden I knew being a father was one job I was destined to have. I strive everyday to be a man my son can call Hero to his friends at school, but more than likely it's my Dad works at Chuck E Cheese, or my dad leads scouts! Which is fine too because he uses the words "my Dad". But hopefully one day when my boys have to write an essay on their heroes, I'll at least be on the considered list. Because children follow example more often than advice! The other day that changed my life forever is when the twins were born, because now I had two boys, and one girl! A girl who would be destined to be Daddy's little girl and she knew it the first time she grabbed my finger and I melted. Being a parent is the greatest career in the world, you don't get paid in money, but instead you get paid in hand drawn pictures and cards. By the little hugs here and there, and the constant I love yous! Which are worth more to me than any amount in the world.
Another word that popped up multiple times in peoples answers were inspiration and role model, which are two titles I strive for everyday!!! We all need a little push from time to time, whether it be get to the gym, to start a project, smile a lil bit more, and the list could go on for days. I know the feeling to help people overcome issues, and it is one of the greatest feelings in the world. Helping someone without being asked is a trait I try to instill in my children everyday. In short the way I live my life is the way I want my children to grow up!! I want them not to follow in my footsteps I want them to walk along side me, and when they get to that point to run off as fast as they can on the right path of life. I see brief glimpses of that now in my children which means they are getting the hang of it early on. Which as a father makes me extremely proud. Inspiration is a never ending cycle as the picture can tell you. To be able to inspire you must first come inspired. Everyday I look for inspiration in everything I do from working at the Cheese, to being a Dad, to going to the Gym, to the store, being a friend, and being a human. I've been told my numerous people that they can come to for advice and talk to me about nearly and issue they are having, not just because I advice, but because more importantly I listen. My advice and inspiration all comes from my life, and realizing we all need inspiration and love in our lives. I've had some very high ups, and some real deep downs, but the only way the downs get better is by using those experiences to move on, and possibly help others. I came across a quote the other day, "God comforts the disturbed, and disturbs the comfortable". Which I believe is true! God gives us what he knows we can handle, plus a little more to test us. I think that's the real reason I had twins! He knew I could handle two kids, but since I love a challenge he tacked on another for shiggles! If you need a shoulder to cry on, someone to talk to, have a good time with, or someone to just stare at the wall in silence I will always be there! Because that's who I am!
In conclusion, I had no idea to the extent of who I am to some of the closest people to me! And now knowing the truth I have to step it up a notch, because I love a challenge! I'm going to be blogging more, working out more, working on becoming the best GM I can possibly be at the Cheese for the future, becoming a greater loving father and husband, and finish writing my book!!! This was a very eye opening experience to me, and if you want to know how others see you all you gotta do is ask, and I'm pretty sure they will let you know what you mean to them and how special you really are. If you do ask I'll tell you straight up who you are to me, because each person who reads this has a place in my heart. In short I'm a lot of things, things I knew who I was, and some I didn't! And I'm never changing who I am!!!!
As always have peace and love in your heart in whatever you do, and you will enjoy life!
Life is defined by the roads we take, the roads we don't, the shortcuts we sometimes make, the dead end streets, and the One Way's we enter the wrong way. Not every person takes the same roads, but we all have similar paths, and in the end we all have one thing in common: we're born, we live, then we die. Two of the roads are similar to every person, and the way we live is where we define ourselves. The similar paths we all share in some aspect are: education, relationships, friendships, love, career. individuality, and family. How we take on this paths influences everything we do and all the steps we take in the future. I'm only going to focus on six of those seven, because when I talk about my education I turn into the Hulk, and I can't smash my computer.
Relationships and love I'll throw into together. First of all if you haven't read my month on love I highly recommend you do. because I had some pretty good stuff in there (or I might be a lil bias). But simply put I believe every person in this world has a soul mate. Everyone! The key to finding them is looking everywhere for them, and especially in places you shrugged off before. IE, the friendzone! I spent my whole teenage life there with a ton of people praying everyday I would get that ticket out. It never came! Which I'm thankful for now, because only strong friendships can survive a breakup, and I think spending that time in the friend zone only made our friendships stronger. But if you ask any successful relationship nine times out of ten they say they married their best friend! So sooner or later friendship does evolve to more, if it is destined to!
The road of friends and friendship should never be taken for granted! I truly appreciate and love my friends who have stuck by me through the years, and I would not be the person who I am today if not for them. Each friend you have has the potential to teach you a very important lesson in life that only they can teach you. For some it takes time to get that lesson out, and others are filled to the brim of them they make a blog and blow up your phone with random text messages! :D But each lesson they have is worth knowing, whether it be something that should be done or not done, somebody to date or not date, parenting information, etc...the list is endless! Just think of what your friends have you taught you do, or not do!!! Without them teaching you that, guess what YOU wouldn't know!!! I have a few close friends I have known since I was a wee lad, and I have a few close friends I have known for only a few years, but I swear to you I will not take either one for granted, due to the fact your old friends know how you have been in the past, and your current friends have an idea where your going. And combining those two opinions you can figure out where you need to go!
8 Years ago to this day I was nervous as hell. why because it was the night before I started the Cheese. If you asked me 8 years ago if I would still be a the Cheese I would of laughed at you (hence the Joker), but if you ask me today where I'll be in 8 years from now I will tell a better place because of the Cheese. The truth is without the Cheese you wouldn't be reading this right now because the people I work with and have worked with inspire me to write it, so once again thank you from the bottom of my heart! I'm not saying it's all been peaches and cream there but the good times definitely. I could write a book about my times and the people I have met while working there, but words can't do it justice. That place will always have a special part in my life, and I didn't realize it until someone else pointed out in others hearts as well. I have the power to make Lil Timmy have the greatest 5th birthday EVER!! Whether it be helping him out playing a game, just talking to him about his favorite superheros, or wearing a giant mouse costume in all his birthday pics with Chuck! I am kicking myself for taking that for granted over the last few years, but I promise to myself I will fully embrace that power now!! For every person that walks through that door, because if the rumors are true, then..... Well let's not jump to conclusions.
First off the word individuality is a pain the butt to write, and is fricking hard to spell after typing for so long! Just thought I'd let you know that, because that's the kind of person I am! We all are born, we all die, but only few live! Our individuality is determined by how we take each road that we are offered. And each road we decide to take or not to take is a huge part in creating you! Each road I talked about before makes up you and who you will become, and the only person who knows that person is yourself! So I can't tell you what roads to take, I only guide you with the life I have led so far. I know marriage, kids, and working at the Cheese isn't for everyone, but it's for me and that's what is important. I went down some dark roads in the past, but I found my way out. I went down some bright roads and am still going down where I have no idea where they end. And I've gone down a few one way streets the wrong way, but I just turned around and started over. And I try very hard to avoid dead ends, because there is no point to them. I've never been a shortcut person, and I think that's why I'm stuck where I'm at, but the truth is if I did take a shortcut in anything I did, I wouldn't be me, and I wouldn't be creating myself, I'd be creating my evil twin Sven. :)
I'm not going to start this off with an apology like all my others, instead I'm going to tell you why I've been silent. I have started four different blogs in the last four months, and all of them are a quarter complete, because I couldn't finish them. The reason why they remain unfinished is because I wasn't believing what I was thinking. The mind is our greatest weapon when used correctly, or it can be your own personal WMD, and for me it was the later. I have spent the whole summer attempting to think "happy" thoughts, and soon as you have to tell yourself to think "happy" thoughts, you are pretty much screwed. The trick to anything in this world is just be, and don't think about it! As soon as you start thinking about anything you are screwed! You start to over analyze every little detail and start to believe the worse will happen, because the thing most people think about is the worst case scenario, and if that's all we focus on guess what you start to believe it! That is the start of the biggest downhill battle you will ever see! So I've been focusing on the positive side of things lately, and not been thinking about the negative. And truth be told it's a lot harder than it looks!
Everyday I wake up I tell myself the same mantra I have adopted whenever I work out, " I can do this, I will do this, I am doing this!" Every time before I walk through my gym's doors I say that to myself. between every rep, between every set, and between every station I keep telling myself that. The second you say you can't do something, and believe you can't you never will! Never use the word "can't", instead use the word maybe!! Because then there is the possibility you can, or if you're unable to you will keep trying until you do, and the word "maybe" becomes can! There are two great motivators in life: When someone tells me I can't do something, it dares me to prove them wrong! The second thing is changing maybe to can, and upping what you can do now to another maybe! My goal in life is to be better than who I was the day before!! Some day's I succeed, and some I don't! But I never tell myself I can't do it! Instead I tell myself maybe I can!!
