Any chance I can get to write about superheros I always take it. This will be no exception. Over the past few weeks I've reread all my blogs to see what I have said in the past, and knowing that i wrote those words that I was reading tells me I know deep down they are all true. Every blog I have written has led up to this one, and I didn't realize that until two or three months ago, when everything started to fall in place, and trigger the transformation of what is to become. Ralph Waldo Emerson said "The only person you're destined to be is the person you decide to be!" Well I have decided to become a completely different person and kill off a side of me that gets me nowhere. The dreamer in me is being transformed into the doer side of me, because dreams are great, but they are nothing if you don't do anything about them.
Now the superhero aspect of this. Each blog I have done so far is in a way my own team of Avenger's I have assembled to take on my own personal Loki, my negative and fearful side. Each time I posted it was accepted with love and support helping make my words stronger, and making me believe in what I was writing more and more. I'm not sure if I could add labels to my blogs according to the certain Avengers, but I know for a fact they all build on each other. Armed with the words I have written from my heart I know deep down that with the support I have now with everyone I know I too can walk up to my negative self and slam him into the ground repeatedly! Loki brags about having an army, well I have my own Hulk. My Hulk is my determination to never give up, and never stop fighting. My Loki's army is my own personal demons and fears that keep me from doing what I wanna do, well from now on I'm unleashing the Hulk on his army, and smashing it into oblivion. Fear and my demons will not hold me back anymore, what does this mean, it means I pray each night I can move on from person I am right now, and become the person I'm destined to be.
What does this all mean and what is The End I'm speaking of, it's simple I'm done talking about what I wanna do, and I'm going to do it. I already have a chapter and a half written for my book, and what I have planned for it I believe a lot of people will like it. I'm done talking about Project Awesome, because over the year it has embodied me, and swallowed me whole. I live, eat, breathe, and sleep Project Awesome and I couldn't be happier. Without it I don't know where I would be. It has helped me silence my dark self, and has brought out the best person I know who I can be. I almost didn't get to write this blog because of events that happened this weekend, but it helped me realize something in my moment of crisis. I do not want the words Chuck E Cheese manager forever immortalized next to my name, I want the words "husband, father, friend, brother, son, and writer" immortalized in my name. My whole life I've been known as the guy who works at McDonald's then became the Chuck E Cheese guy, well it's time to be known as that writer guy. My words are weapons and I'm cocked, aimed, and ready to go to battle against my own fear of not succeeding.
So to sum up everything in a nice little package this is the end of a big side of me, the side of me that is always dreaming, but never doing anything about them. This is an awakening of the man I have decided to be, and the man I am destined to become. This new year I'm making one resolution, one promise, to become the best version of myself in every aspect of my life: friendship, fatherhood, husbandhood, writer, fitness, and etc... This week starts this new promise to myself, one I know you all will help me keep. So thank you and I love you!! And last but not least, AVENGERS ASSEMBLE!!!
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