Winter Tears

Winter Tears

If I wrote this poem with pen and paper

Tears would fall

Smearing the ink

Making letters and words incoherent and hard to read

Becoming my thoughts as I lie awake in the dark

Afraid to stop and think

Calmness brings emotion

Emotions bring winter tears...

It was mid November, a week before Thanksgiving

Facebook memories can really suck

Reminding you a year ago is when it all started

Asking friends and family for prayers

Nobody asking why 

But you remember

And will never forget

Emotions bring winter tears...

One less seating at the table 

Your voice and smile no longer around

Holidays are hard when you lose a loved one

Illusions of happiness 

Around a broken family

Sadness hovering over us like a black cloud

Forming bigger and bigger in anticipation of a storm

Emotions bring winter tears...

Every hug I now give is a little bit tighter and longer

Since you can't be here to hug them back

Saying I love you is a little louder

For the same reason

Everyone tells you to think of the good memories

And don't worry he's looking down on you right now

Doesn't fight the sadness

Emotions bring winter tears...

It's almost been a year 

Since I hugged you 

Said I loved you 

And played our song 

One last time

Eyes watering at the start of the song

Every time I hear it

Emotions bring winter tears...

The Masks We Wear

The masks we wear

How does one define the word mask

A partial cover for the face used for disguise

Masks can hide so many things

Bring out something else in others

Sometimes they are a reflection of how we really feel inside

Blood stained lips

Scar enveloped face

Boils and warts protruding all over

Grotesque and terrifying are the only words that come to mind

The children squeal with glee

As they say trick or treat

Some wear masks

So the human can become a monster

Mascara wand hits the lashes

Scarlet kissable lips

Perfectly shadowed eyelids

Rosy peach colored cheeks

A spritz of the perfume and brushing of the hair

A smile that could melt hearts

Some wear masks

To emphasize their true beauty

Cold emotionless eyes

A smile that no one should trust

But everyone does

Lies and empty promises roll off their tongue

Reasons why we fear our neighbor

And trust so little of people

Some wear masks

So the monster can appear to be human

Tears falling from their soul

Smiles that cover so much pain

Day in and day out refusing to quit

Saying we are fine and ok

As if trying to convince ourselves

And no one else

Some wear masks

To appear strong when all they feel is weak

We all have our own masks that we wear

Hoping they don’t become our actual face

Journey

Journeys

Defined as an act of traveling from one place to another

In reality, it so much deeper than that

They can take days, months, years

Even lifetimes

Weird for such a complex word

To be explained in such simple words

How can we define a word

When we ourselves our defined by our 

Journeys

They can be taken with others

Walking side by side 

Sometimes carrying ones who hurt

And other time you yourself

Will be carried

Happiness and joy 

When with others

Sadness and pain 

When the footsteps walk the other way

Or even worse 

Existing only in our hearts and souls

There are millions of reasons why we go on journeys

Choices we make ourselves

To make us stronger 

A better person

Happy and sad circumstances 

Forcing fates hand

Giving us millions of moments

Other times 

Robbing us of memories 

We will never experience

Everyone's journey is different

There is a different God's plan for everybody 

We are consonantly weaving in and out of other's stories

Hopefully for the good and to inspire

Sometimes sadly to hurt and cause pain 

World constantly judges all

Not realizing the demons we face 

Day in and day out

Personal battles we have fought inside 

Some won 

Some lost

Obstacles we have overcome 

Or failures so bad 

We quit

Step by step 

Tear by tear, smile by smile

We must go on in our journey 

Seeking the true definition of journey 

Change within ourselves

Without that change

You are just traveling one place to another