Autopilot

Autopilot

Flying, stuck on this plane

Haunted by bullshit and underlying pain

Swallowing excuse after excuse 

Never-ending interpersonal abuse

Stare out the window capturing every detail of each cloud

Alone on this plane, no one else is around

Hearing my own voice over the Captain's speaker

Making a reality of my greatest fear

He's grown sick of my same #$@ different day

Adapting that mantra and accepting it as a mentality 

Expressing concern at a time we had dreams

Now I've given up, comfortable with just settling, it seems

Pissed off that all I do is #@$% around when given time

When I used to write stories and thoughts with words that rhyme

The door opens, watch myself grab a parachute and bail

Leaving me to burn in my own personal hell

Now my dreams have left I feel alone

All the blame is mine to own

Alone on this plane now I just sit there

Wondering if when the plane crashes will anyone care

I jump up ignoring the fasten your seat belt sign

Tired of hearing myself BS and whine

Running full speed at the locked pilot door

In the cockpit is my demons, my fears, and we are all going to war

I make it in and the window shows images of my life

Challenges, failures, success, children, family, friends, my beautiful wife

Pick up the mic and radio the tower

Praying I have the knowledge to get me out of this, the will power

Afraid there would be no voice on the other end

Instead the plane was filled with voices from family and every friend

All saying the same things

I NEVER needed a plane to fly, I was born with wings

Taking a moment I let that sink in

Feeling the healing within starting to begin

Taking a running start and smashing through the window

Proving to myself that I am more than a man, I am my own hero

Safely flying to the ground

Hugging my family and friends saying I love you all without making a sound

Looking up at the sky watching my autopiloted plane burst into flame

Realizing the truth after that journey I will never be the same