Buried Alive

There's no one around

No other footprints but my own

Being erased by the fast falling snow

No animals
No bugs

No birds flying overhead

Even the angels that are usually by my side

Have backed off

Only me

Then I hear the screams

Crunching of snow

The assault on the white blanket

Scarping wood against the dirt

As I drag this coffin through the snow

Banging and beating

Begging to be let out

The dented crooked nails 

Protruding from the top

Each effort of whatever is trapped inside

Desperate to escape

Is blocked by these tiny steel spikes

And wooden grave

The wind is a soft breeze

Bringing snowflakes to my cheek

Heavy shovel in one hand

No gloves

I want to remember this day

Pain helps me remember 

Scars make me never forget

Walk to the middle of the trees

There's an opening

A perfect place for its final resting spot

I drop the coffin

Making an impression on the snow

A silhouette of the crime I have committed

Pulling the knife out from its hiding spot

Blood stains all over the metal

Hoping the snow doesn't tarnish its beauty

I place the knife on the coffin

Daring for whatever is inside to grab it

More pounding on the coffin

Desperately reaching for something to exact their revenge

On me

Knowing they are unable to 

I do what the world has done to me 

I laugh

And start to dig

5 feet till the ground

It's hard to get away with murder

I dig for hours

Not shoveling fast enough

The falling snow covering the hole

Determination takes over

Adrenaline takes charge

The hole is dug

10 feet deep

Sweat pours down

Freezing to ever crevice on my face

 Tears stream down

It had to be done

The banging has stopped

The snow has stopped

Mother Nature knows there's no way of stopping me

Finally cooperates

Then the screams

The whispers start again

Invading the silence

The peace

I kick the cofffin

SHUT UP!

They don't listen

SHUT THE FUCK UP!

They don't listen

Just get louder

I grab the knife

Rip off the nails

Pry open the lid

Revealing emptiness

My skeletons are no longer there

The demons have escaped

They were never in there

Only in my head

That's where they always have been

No escape

Trapped in my own mind

Handcuffed by fear

Shackled by failure

Branded by fuck ups

And mistakes

I finally surrender

I place the coffin in the hole

Throw the knife in the woods

Snow starts to fall

Erasing any evidence I was even here

As if she knows her true role in this day

Snowing harder
Faster

Deeper

It's time

 I climb into the coffin

Close the lid

No more demons whispering

No more skeletons screaming

Only silence

Peaceful

The only sound in the snow hitting the coffin

Burying me

Accepting my fate

As one final whisper escapes my lips

I'm sorry....