Hate

I made a promise to myself I would never post anything negative on my blog, but I have realized without any negative there is no reason and no chance of positive.  In a way they need each other to both exist.  Same as hate and love, one word I hate and the other brings so much joy to so many aspects of my life, and since I've only wrote about love I think I have to be balanced and write about hate as well.  First of all if you are offended by foul language skip this blog, because there's no other way to get the point through with out using it.  With that being said I give you: Hate

I hate the word hate, and I hate using that word because of how powerful it actually is.  Hate has caused many deaths in the past, to much, and yet it gets thrown around like it means nothing, kinda like love has.  People say they love just about anything which negates the true meaning, and same thing as hate.  The way I I define hate is having no chance of having anything positive to say about anything, and to me that is one of the scariest things ever.  Hating someone because of sexual orientation, skin color, gender, religion or any other reason is in my eyes is beyond definition.  We are all human, sure we may be different, but what gives us that right to hate someone else for petty differences.  It doesn't and we do it to many times through out our life.
   
Before you think I'm crazy and say hey what about all the bitches and assholes in our life that we all have (see the language warning), is it ok to hate them?  The answer to that is simple is ask yourself why people are like that.  The word Why can unveil a lot about people, and if we ask a simple why, we might find out why they act the way they do.  Who knows maybe their whole life they were treated horribly and see the world as a horrible place so they treat others in accordance.  So they are paying it forward to how they were treated because that's the only way they've been treated their life.  Which is completely wrong to me but to some people it just seems to come naturally.  Some of our biggest battles are silent among people, they might realize and not care what they are doing, or they know what they are doing and don't give a rats ass.  So the best way to deal with bitches and assholes is to be as nice as possible to them and see if they change, and if they don't well you tried, wash your hands of them, brush them off and go off living.  Don't let their hate poison you, because poison can spread and kill the love within  for others.

There are bullies through out our life, when we are young and when we grow older sadly.  Sometimes they have a name, sometimes they have your voice, and sometimes you may even be the bully.  My whole life I have been bullied by actual bullies in my youth so bad my sister had to come to my rescue.  Which was embarrassing then, and still it is to admit it now, but I know my sister meant well, and I love you sis for doing that.  But now my biggest bully is inside my mind.  It's a bully that says no matter how hard I will never amount to anything, because I' m not special enough.  Or it's telling me to keep looking the mirror fattie and put on that bikini top to hide those man boobs, no matter how hard I work out.  Its a voice that tells me at night give up trying to write, because you have given up every other time you have tried before.  Some of those voices are fueled by past and previous experiences, and others are simply talking shit.  People talk and talk not realizing that words hurt more than they know, or they do and they don't care.  What they say about stick and stones are lies because you can heal from being beat with sticks, but emotional scars from words being flung are a lot harder to heal from.

So in conclusion, I hate the word hate!  I only actually hate one person, and that person is dead, so I'm not going to waste anymore time on that.  I strongly dislike a lot of people, but the more I think about it I feel sorry that they are not giving me a chance to like them.  I want to believe we are all good people in this world deep down, but there are a few in this world that are put here to test how strong our hearts really are.  Maybe the good people of this world are put here on this world to devenomize the poison that the not so nice people spew with their hatred in words and actions, or maybe God put them here to show us there is a reason to be good, because if your not you end up like that.  I just know I'm done letting the poison of hatred get in my heart from now on, and walking away from the bullshit hatred breeds.