Each year I get older I just get older, but this year I really started to analyze my life and where it's at. And trust me if your not in the right loving kind state of mind this can be a very dangerous thing to do. You will start to over analyze every little detail and keep asking yourself why you are where you at instead of looking where you are at now and be genuinely impressed with yourself. I did both and the first time I didn't do it with my heart and just compared it to what I had planned out years ago it brought me down, and brought me down hard. But then I looked at it again with an open heart and wide eyes and have realized my plan wasn't big enough.
When man makes plans, God laughs. This is my motto and I know it to be true. I'm going to take you on a little ride called Dane's life how I planned it to be, and how and why my life is 100 times better than what I had planned out. First of all I didn't plan to have kids till I was 30, and after I became a successful Hollywood writer/director. You see back in the days of my first trip though ITT I wrote a screenplay, it has 24 pages I think. I think its really funny, its super vulgar, and basically a rip off of Clerks and Mallrats combined. It was called NFS Tech (Not Film School Tech) and it was about my time at ITT with my buddies. When I was writing it I thought it was hilarious, still to this day I think it is, but it is not me. It's basically a stoner comedy, and having a guy who doesn't do drugs write a movie like that just shows how bad he is copying and is super desperate. (P.S. if you wanna read it let me know I still have it somewhere), So I stopped writing it. Instead I moved on to writing another movie called "Confessions of a Teenage Boy" which was about this teen who was dating this girl no one liked (very similiar to real life at the time) and was a total screw up, and couldn't do anything right. Well he tries to kill himself, but fails at that too and gets amnesia instead and has to learn about his life all over, and realizes he screwed up big time and rights all his wrongs. I stopped writing that one for two reasons: 1. I was becoming depressed writing it and thinking about it constantly, and 2. that same year Confessions of A Teenage Drama Queen came out with Lindsey Lohan, and I thought okay God thanks for the huge sign to stop writing and I did. For many years.
If my plan followed through like it was supposed I wouldn't know any of you reading this, and my life wouldn't be near as rich. I might of had famous friends, but getting famous friends to hang out is probably a trillion times harder. And through the time we have hung out at work, outside of work, online, or where ever I know deep down I am one the luckiest men alive because of those memories. Never take advantage of the people you meet for everyone you meet has the potential to have a huge part in your life, or a very small one. Family is there for you always and will most likely always tell you the truth, you just have to be open to listening to it. Mothers and Fathers know what they are talking about because guess what they were once kids to and they might be telling you how they reacted because it worked for them, or telling you how they wish they reacted in retrospect because it would of been a better choice in the long run. I'm just saying try opening your eyes and ears first, then open your mouth when you truly know what they are trying to tell you. And friends. I did a whole blog on friends in the past, but simply put every stranger you meet is a simple hello or hows it going away from becoming a friend. I've made a lot of close friends with that mentality, and I wouldn't change them for the world. I am truly humbled to say I have such close of friends they all feel like family to me, and to that I say thank you.
But looking back at that plan and what I have been through in the past I'm way happier where I ended up. A father of three, a husband for ten years, a son my parents can be proud of, the brother my sister deserves, and a man lucky to have everyone that he has in his life, in his life. I'm writing a book that is so me that I'm the only one who could write it, and I believe this is what God intended for me to showcase my talent for the first time, and only gave me a glimpse of it in the past, and finally let it all come to light when I was ready and realized that my life is my muse. So yes in the past I made a plan, and God laughed! Because he had something better planned for me, I just had to wait for the time, for when I was truly ready for it.
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